Opiner-Buddha

I’ve been thinking a lot about the conversation we had in the comments the other day. You know, about my being judgmental. I’m still a little surprised by Opiner’s reaction. Why did that post in particular offend him so mightily? I felt like that one was kind of a throwaway, actually. I wasn’t thinking horrible thoughts about CaryMale37. I just find unnecessary quotation marks funny. Clearly, I’m not the only one.

Listen, I make joke! (That has to be said with an Eastern European accent.)

I mean, yes, I’m judgmental. But seriously, once I get to know you, I nearly always adore you. I’m going to say 99.64% of the people I get to know? I am almost pathologically admiring of them. I’m arguing a case for their awesomeness inside my head at all times, and they just keep providing me with evidence. (The other 0.36% of the people I meet I think are total douches.)

So, should I judge people I don’t know? Probably not.

Do I do it? Yep.

Is it funny? I think so. Often.

…But I’m coachable. I’ll work on it.

I knew this guy, only peripherally really, when I lived in New York. He was probably in his mid-forties, businessman. At one point, he said to me, “I’ve started looking at all criticism as coaching. Even personal attacks, I just take as something to consider and work on to be more effective with people.”

My Catholic friend Cat frequently listens to a Buddhist podcast. When I told her about remembering what the businessman had said, she mentioned that her podcast monk often says something like: Let everyone be your Buddha. Every person that you meet appears before you to teach you something.

So, from now on, I’ll try to remember to reflect on my judgments of prospective dates.

I’ll probably still make fun of them on the blog, though.

Whip It

My friend Anna used to tell her students, “Nobody’s good at everything, but everybody‘s good at something.”

And that’s pretty true at CrossFit. Most people excel in one area. They might be good at other things, but they rock it out on one particular lift or skill. You have people like that guy I watched blow through push-ups and box jumps like it was a stroll through the park. There’s my sister-wife who can dead-lift ridiculous weights. Colin climbs on and over stuff like a monkey. Phil can snatch his own body-weight. Erin will run circles around you. So will Paul. (Actually, Paul can do most things. But he’s kind of a freak of nature.)

There’s really nothing that I excel at at CrossFit. People don’t point to me as an example of how to do anything in the gym.

In the gym.

Did you get that part?

Because last Wednesday, a bunch of us CrossFitters went rollerskating. Turns out, I’m kind of a bad-ass in the rink. I had no idea I could skate like that!

Could it be my secret fantasy is not a pipe dream, after all?

Why I Love CrossFit, Part 2

Like 95% of females in this country, I have spent a really stupid number of hours of my life fretting about what number would show up when I stepped on a scale. But about eight years ago, when I decided to seek treatment for my food addiction, I started by buying two books, one called Overcoming Overeating and the other, When Women Stop Hating Their Bodies. In them, the authors said, Do NOT weigh yourself; throw out your scale. And I did. I didn’t weight myself for years. When I went to the doctor’s office, I would close my eyes and tell the nurse not to say my weight out loud. I still don’t weigh myself. I don’t own a scale. I only know approximately how much I weigh.

Here’s the thing, I like measurable results. I like to see data about how I’ve improved. Or not. I think it can be really motivational. But only when there’s no mental illness involved in your outcomes.

Because, for a compulsive overeater/food addict/emotional eater/what-have-you, the absolute worst thing you can do is focus on your weight. If you’re trying to heal yourself from obsessive thoughts about food, weighing yourself adds a whole new level of crazy. I know this first-hand. When I used to go on diets, I would think about nothing but food, I would gorge myself on food I hated because it was low in Points, and I would scheme how to trick the scale—“Maybe if I take off my earrings before I weigh in, I’ll hit my weight goal.”

Now I have a new weight goal. It’s called a PR, and I won’t ever see it by stepping on a scale. A PR is a personal record. As in, you pick up more weight than you ever have before.

You may remember my first attempts at the clean & jerk back in late August. I was lifting about 25 lbs. Well, by December 29, I hit a one-rep max of 73 lbs. I hadn’t tried for a new 1RM since. This week’s Open WOD called for clean & jerks…at 110 lbs. for females. Ha! I knew I wouldn’t be able to C&J 110 lbs., but I figured it was a good time to find my new 1RM. If I hit 88 pounds, I was fixing to be really happy.

I worked up to 73, doing three reps at a time. Cake.

I decided to do one rep at each increment from there on out.

78. Easy.

83. No problem.

88. Fine.

93. Fail.

Coaching from Rich…93. Yep.

95.5. With more coaching from Rich, done.

98. Rich, coaching, got it.

100.5. Fail. Rest. Rich, coaching. Cleaned, and motherfucking jerked.

I tried 103, but I was shot. I did not care. 100.5 pounds! Now I can’t wait to get back in there and lift 103 pounds over my head.

Why I love CrossFit (with a hat tip to friend and awesome athlete, Nelly, and I quote): My “weight goal” is now something that I want to LIFT, as opposed to something I want to BE.

Why I Love CrossFit, Part 1

As a kid, a lot of things made me proud of myself. A 102 on a spelling test (I had to get the two Bonus Words to be satisfied), getting the violin solo in orchestra, a blue ribbon at Field Day, making it into the Pioneer Playmakers drama troupe.

But during the course of my adult life, there haven’t been a whole lot of times when I felt like patting myself on the back.

I didn’t feel particularly proud of myself when I got my Master’s. My roommates had to be like, “Uh, Amy, are you going to invite us to your graduation?” I said, “You want to go? Wait, do you think my parents would want to go?”

I bought a house, but I wasn’t brimming with pride on closing day. I just signed a bunch of paper and pay my mortgage on time every month. Woo-frickin-hoo.

I teach children every damn day of the week, but I don’t walk out of my school, going, “I make a difference.” Most days, I’m just glad I haven’t doled out any corporal punishment.

But then I go to CrossFit Durham.

Today the WOD was: alternating 20/18/16/14/12/10/8/6/4/2 burpees and 2/4/6/8/10/12/14/16/18/20 double-unders

My time: 20:52 Rx*

I finished last.

Again.

And most definitely, a spectator would have said less, “What an athlete!” and more, “Wow. That’s…she’s really…trying hard, isn’t she?”

But you know what? I hate burpees, I hate double-unders, and I did ’em anyway. Afterward, I had to lie on the floor, whimpering, and hit my inhaler twice, but I finished.

Why I love CrossFit: I come in dead last and still feel proud of myself. Every time.

*Rx, y’all. I can count on two fingers how many times I’ve done a WOD as prescribed. Today was #2. (My middle finger, as it were. Which I dedicate to burpees everywhere.) Yes, I had to do a single bounce in between each double-under, but I didn’t count attempts, which is considered totally legit to do. No, if a rep was going to count, I was going to jump over that rope.

And jump I did. And burpee I did.

Avid Bruxist Seeks Personal Shopper

I hate clothes shopping. I mean it—I loathe it. I despise it. Just thinking about it makes me put a hand to my forehead and stagger to my fainting couch. And it’s for one reason, and one reason only. Not really. It’s for every reason, but for one huge, major reason.

Pants.

Shirts, I can buy. I don’t love doing it, but it’s one of those chores that just makes life a little easier in the long run. Thinking about all the no-shirt-no-service establishments to which I’m given entrée makes buying shirts tolerable.

Shoes, fine. I have a hierarchy when it comes to shoes: comfort > cost > cuteness. I’ll pay a lot of money for a comfortable pair of shoes. Whether my feet look cute in them is the least important part of the formula. I dig clogs, and I dig flip-flops. You will never find me out on a Friday night in FMPs. Maybe if I lost half my body weight, but would you want to walk around with 170 pounds of pressure funneled into your smooshed-up toes? I thought not. Whatever, shoe shopping is not the problem.

Dresses are all right. I mean, how often do I have to buy a dress? And I can actually look cute in a dress…I just tried to find photographic evidence, but the only full-body shot I could come up with was this:

What am I doing, you ask? I was trying to do this adorable pose my friend Cat does, in which she indeed looks like a cat. I look less like a cat, and more like a dainty, flirtacious hippo.

You’ll have to take my word for it, I can look really cute in a dress. (Sidenote: that flowery, flowy dress up there, I bought that in, like, ’99. No shit. Wore it to my friend Dan’s wedding in October of last year. Probably gonna wear it to your wedding when you invite me.)

Of course, with dresses there’s the chub-rub issue. Chubby girls require

these

or

this

to avoid shredding the insides of their thighs when they walk. But again, how often do I wear a dress? I’m gonna go with twice a year. An average of two people I know get married every year.

Which brings me to pants. First of all, finding pants that fit my ghetto ass requires a tenacity usually found only in the honey badger. Second, remember the chub-rub? Well, that continues with pants, but fortunately, or un-, there’s fabric in between the frictional bodies. Fortunately, because there’s no angry rash. Unfortunately, because I will abrade the living shit out of the inner-thigh part of a pair of jeans. Seriously, if you were stranded on a desert island, you wouldn’t need matches or even two sticks to rub together. All you’d need is me, a pair of size-14 corduroys, and an up-tempo song on your iPod. I would start walking and blaze that motherfucker up.

Now about two years ago, I found a pair of jeans at Marshall’s—Donna Karan jeans (she’s a designer!)—and they fit, and even the social worker at my old school (female, straight, sort of uptight) said, “Wow, Amy, those jeans make your bottom look so cute!” I loved those jeans from the moment I bought them.

Well

shit.

Yep, that’s my fingers sticking through the gaping hole in my DKNYs. But I wasn’t done with those pantaloons yet. Who knew when the next time was that I’d find such a prize. I decided to patch that hole. What could it take? A little fabric, some thread, a little elbow grease.

I am a master seamstress.

Fuck. I have to go buy some pants.

Open WOD #2

On Saturday, whether you were registered for the CrossFit Games or not, you did Open WOD #2, which was:

15-minute AMRAP (as many rounds as possible) of:

  • 9 dead-lifts (155 lbs. for men, 100 for women)
  • 12 hand-release push-ups (hand release at the bottom, to make sure your chest hits the floor, I guess)
  • 15 box jumps (24 in. for men, 20 for women)

I dead-lifted the 100 lbs. That part was easy. I’m built like a beast of burden, so lifts that are all legs, back, and haunches—no big whoop.

But I’m not gonna lie, after the first handful, I was all wormy on those push-ups.

The box jumps—you know, I wanted to do the WOD as prescribed, and I’ve jumped a twenty-five-inch box before even. But box jumps are actually pretty dangerous. If you’re doing 15 every round, and you’re tired, and you catch a toe on the edge, it could mean a whole lot of orthodontic work. I’m 35 and single. I figured a full set of dentures probably wouldn’t increase my odds.

So I jumped a 17″ box.

I ended up with six rounds, plus six dead-lifts. The bad-asses were getting eight and nine rounds (Rx, of course).

But there’s this one dude. He’s not a big dude. He’s a relatively small dude, in fact. Probably weighs 140 pounds. Dude did ELEVEN rounds and change.

I was counting and recording his rounds for him, and I really had to concentrate because I found myself just wanting to watch him move. He was all efficiency and strength and power and quickness.

I was totally inspired.