{"id":5267,"date":"2012-09-27T16:29:54","date_gmt":"2012-09-27T20:29:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/avidbruxist.com\/blog\/?p=5267"},"modified":"2012-09-27T17:34:19","modified_gmt":"2012-09-27T21:34:19","slug":"37","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/avidbruxist.com\/blog\/2012\/09\/27\/37\/","title":{"rendered":"37"},"content":{"rendered":"

So<\/p>\n

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One of these days, I’ll stop measuring my self-worth in Facebook Likes.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

The irony (or not) is that my story had to do with being less than sanguine about turning 37, and being single, and having what I have, and not having what I don’t have. People keep asking me if they can read it, but—and this is weird because I told the story to 200 strangers on Monday night—I don’t feel ready to share it here yet. It was hard, and I cried, and apparently they cried<\/a>, and I was hoping that it would be this big catharsis and I’d be Healed, and Filled with Optimism. But I’m not.<\/p>\n

My birthday was great: My friends did it up for me; my writing teacher said nice things about my homework; I won the SLAM.<\/p>\n

But two things: (1) I still seem to be in the midst of this 3\/8-life crisis<\/a>, and (2) Jeff, the director of the Monti, posted the absolute worst picture of me on Facebook on Tuesday to announce my victory.<\/p>\n

And I flipped out.<\/p>\n

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Maybe a little histrionic.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n
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Perhaps more than a little.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

I concluded by saying, “If that’s what I look like, then the question ‘Why am I still single?’ has been answered.”<\/p>\n

He deleted the photo, but I really did let it ruin my day. Which feels dumb. Letting one bad picture negate all the happy. Especially, since I’ve been trying to be more accepting of my appearance<\/a>, and most especially in the face of the Sikh woman’s righteous badassery<\/a> that’s been floating around the internet for the last few days.<\/p>\n

How do I get to be more like her? I don’t believe that my body is a gift from a divine being, genderless or otherwise, but I do believe that not focusing on my appearance would leave more time to think about my attitudes and actions.<\/p>\n

In the past month or so, when I’ve found myself sliding into egocentrism, I’ve stopped, gotten on Facebook, and acknowledged a friend’s particular brand of awesomeness. It has helped.<\/p>\n

But I like<\/em> gettin my hur did. :(<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

So The irony (or not) is that my story had to do with being less than sanguine about turning 37, and being single, and having what I have, and not having what I don’t have. People keep asking me if they can read it, but—and this is weird because I told the story to 200 … Continue reading 37<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13,5,20,21],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5267","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-call-me-crazy","category-dating","category-first-world-problems","category-whats-making-me-happy"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/avidbruxist.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5267","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/avidbruxist.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/avidbruxist.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/avidbruxist.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/avidbruxist.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5267"}],"version-history":[{"count":6,"href":"https:\/\/avidbruxist.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5267\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5276,"href":"https:\/\/avidbruxist.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5267\/revisions\/5276"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/avidbruxist.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5267"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/avidbruxist.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5267"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/avidbruxist.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5267"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}